Living for the Weekends

I thought what I needed in my life was the structure an office job. After graduating college, I felt I could use the the typicality of office work. A job which can provide structure for your schedule and structure for your life. An office job tells you where to go and what to do and you do it and in return receive great benefits and a steady paycheck. I thought I needed predictability in my life. I thought I belonged in the office sitting at a desk. Turns out that is NOT the case.

I am quickly learning about myself that I am a free sprit. The office work place is not for me. It is too rigid for my personality. I feel stuck in a rut if you will. I need that fulfillment from my career. I want to wake up in the morning and really enjoy what I do day in and day out. Since starting my structured office job, I live for the weekends. I have become the person I hated. Someone who cannot wait till it is the weekend and dreads the week ahead. I am grateful to have a job, don't get me wrong, but I long for the job where it doesn't feel like a job to go to during the week. I need a little flexibility in my life. Turns out that things can be too structured sometimes.

For now though, I am going to live for the weekends and work through the weeks. I know what you're thinking... You can't live like that, Autumn! You'll waste your life away. You have to have positive thoughts. While I totally agree and yes, having that mindset helps me most of the time. It still doesn't hide that fact of my feelings. For now, I am continuing my search for a career that fulfills me; something that gives life to my soul but also to my bank account 😉